wow, seems like im way burried into myspace these days?? wow its been a while hasnt it?? so much has happened and gone on...its ridiculous!! so if ur really interested in knowing wats up with my life go ahead and drop a line and ill try to get on here a lil more often!!

and hey if you have myspace (im on there everyday, im an addict) hit me up, add me!!

www.myspace.com/luckycharms1689

much love you guys....and things are looking a little better...i guess i was extremely depressed in that point in my life!! im better now...or so i think !????!!

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whats up? not much here...just got outta school...got some money and im going to go shopping tonight with my auntie jackie and take her out to eat! don't that just sound like a flipping blast..sure not really but yeah...

got a doctors appointment today...im scared hes going to see my arms...ima wear a long sleeve shirt just incase, cuz he said no cutting and he will put me in the hospital again if i do it...*tear* n i just got ma tongue pierced...it would suck if i gotta take it out!

i cant wait to get a car and i cant wait to move out! i just wanna get the fuck up outta this bitch for realz! someone HELP ME!

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umm it was an average day! worked 10:30-10:30 so theres really not much to say about that...i just like money so i obviously like working.

i think i may have finally talked my mom into co-signing for a really nice car! i told her i would live at home til i paid it off tho but thats ok cuz im done with my boyfriend and im gonna be moving out this summer sometime!  soo yeah...

on the good news side...paul wall at the val-air on june 9th...im goin..who wants to go wiff mi?

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nothing really to say because my life doesn't get any better....day by day...

idk what to think about the boyfriend now....

its just a never ending ficious sick circle that i live in!

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Hi...so this is me...lets see...nothing today! had fucking family counseling which was such a bitch! no one fucking understands that my dads abusive, my moms an alcoholic and that my gramma is crazy?! what dont people get about the situation? and why do i have to keep CRYING out for help and no one will ever fucking listen to me! FUCK all you people who think they know me man! im so hurt right now that i dont know what to do.

i finally ended that shit with the abusive boyfriend and it is about time. he tried to come back AGAIN today! he was begging that he is sorry and that he is off of his bullshit....hes said that one before...then i told him that...he said "well this time i mean it" im like OMG DUDE! yeah how can a man take money from people? ok, lets just throw this situation out there...hes 25...im 17...i give him money all the time...hundreds at a time...i got a job...he dont...he got kids...i dont...he says im a little girl and that hes a grown ass man...all of this doesnt add up right....

and i really want my fucking ex boyfriend back but he seems to have NO INTEREST in me what so ever these days....i wanna feel loved again....i wanna feel invincible..like theres one person out there that TRULY cares and he will never leave me.....i wanna feel that feeling and hes the only person that i ever felt it with...oh fucking well.................

why do i get stuck with losers...i have no true family....barely ANY true friends....no one gives a FUCK about me....and i dont get why i still...sit here...and care about people...how do i do it? how do i sleep at night? gosh...welp im out...

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